despite Sassy's best attempt to make me feel like less of a tard. (sorry i am not feeling pc today) i fucked up big time (also excuse my language) i left annika pill seperater, daily thingum where apparently she could reach (who knew my daughter was this talented) and she got some extra pills last night. not very many. but she did. i called the poison control, and i called the er and was told she would be fine, just to make sure she was ok at 2 hours and 4 hours post ingestion.
she slept with me.
i just couldnt let her be alone because i could not let go that i almost let my kid kill herself like a big giant reject of a mom who should not be trusted alone. its like the time she started to roll, and i had her on my bed and she pushed with her arms rolled, hit the bedside table and landed on the floor on her face. i felt really crappy then too. i know i am technically speaking a good mom. i love my baby with everything i got. but seriously how on earth could i have let this happen.
arrrrrrgh. i know what people are gonna say etc. but its gonna take a while to get over this "learning" experience.
:-( It's a shitty thing to have to "learn". I'm not sure I could love you as much as I do if it was something you could just get over and stop thinking about as soon as it happened. It was traumatic for you and understandably so sweetie.
ReplyDeleteYou're a really, really good mom who made a mistake and that sucks really, really badly; but the important part is that she's OKAY.