tra la la. no seizures for a few days now. it has only taken 4 meds but here we are happily seizure free for once. I know that i dont really have it so bad i mean she could still be having uncontrollable seizures still. she could be brain damaged, she could be dead.
sometimes i feel so selfish for feeling sorry for myself a little. I mean annika is the one with the seizures, and again other people have it worse. but its soooo frustrating talking to doctors, and dealing with new meds, having to explain everything 20 million times just to make sure all the right people know how to medicate and take care of my girl. i know it goes without saying but i love her so much and if anything happened i would totally blame myself even if i wasnt around. we were watching csi last night with papa, and these people had a daughter who died accidentely while with aq babysitter, the babysitter had a baby and they adopted it but the mom hated the kid because she reminded her of the woman who killed her first baby that she killed her second daughter.
weird.
i wouldnt be able to replace my annika. she laughs at her farts, eats her boogers, hugs me when i ask, like to look at the world upside down, and knows without a doubt that she is hot shit. its awesome.
well that is all for now.