so yesterday at 11pm i put the side back on and made annika's bed a crib again. i am pretty upset. i wanted to prve to all the people who thought it was too early wrong. but i fail. last night was a bad bad night and it was frustrating and just shit. so after annika refused to eat and threw her plate of food on the ground 2 times, after her bath, i put her to bed. now while she was bathing i installed a fancy baby gate in front of her door to prevent her from escaping in the morning. we did the whole up and down thing several times, and finally i just closed the baby gat e and walked away. my bad, she hung her arms over the gate and screamed like i was beating her. i swear to god. so i calmed her down, kissed her goodnight put her back to bed, and the little beast thought we were playing, she was out of the bed before i even left the room. so up and down and up and down and up and down until 11 when i put the bed back to a crib and then still 45 mins of screaming. luckily i was exhausted and could sorta sleep throght it. (you see she woke up at 4:30 am yesterday) i think she is getting her 2 year old molars and i dont know how long it takes to get those suckers to pop out but i wish it was faster. i wish she would stop being so contrary but most of all i wish that these episodes of torture wouldnt make me feel like such a bad parent. like i know that i am a good mom. but sometimmes things like this happen and i feel horrible. lke maybe if i had just waited to take her bed apart, or any numb er of things that would make me a "better" parent. anyways of course she is being a little angel for gran today.
i think i am going to call in sick to work i dont wanna getup in the morning.
blech.
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You don't fail. The kiddo didn't come with a manual. You succeeded in determining that now might not be the exact right time to move her into a toddler bed, but at least you gave her a shot.
ReplyDeleteThis makes you a GREAT mother, not a bad mother. You have her an opportunity and when you realized that she wasn't quite ready yet you took a step back. You would have been a bad parent if you had been unwilling to give her a shot at sleeping in the big girl bed. It's all about trial and error sweetie.