cuz you gotta have faith ?

faith has suddenly become an interesting issue in life lately. i became a catholic 5 years ago this Easter. i went through a rigorous class lasting 1.5 years, then got baptised at Easter vigil. my faith has been fairly strong and while i might not be the most consistent churchgoer i really believe. i believe that god is watching and while it is not his job to intervene he is there and he cares and he shares in our collective misery/happiness/hope etc. more importantly god believes in us. it may be hard for him but i think he believes that the human race will survive and we will become better. there are a lot of pitfalls but it is no longer gods job to start over. i mean how many plagues, floods, pillars of salt can a god command before he says you have to do it yourself. like a parent who eventually cant bail their kid out of jail anymore. the parent who has to let their little one make their own mistakes, then fix them. i strongly believe that after god';s ultimate sacrifice, a son an actual human life who took on all of our sins and problems and shouldered them so he could pay the penance for us. i think god has a right to say your turn.
anyways. up until this point i have felt very strongly that god had faith in me like i have faith in him/her. i felt like i could pray to him and while he may not be able to do anything he would listen. but lately my faith in god's faith in me has been diminishing. or maybe it is my faith in myself. i am no longer confident that god is listening. i don't expect god to fix things for me. but i used to feel god, i used to feel that presence. is it gone because maybe i don't believe anymore. or is it gone because i have allowed myself to become so wrapped up in everyone and everything else i can no longer feel it. i don't know. i mean you hear about the people who have sick children who go one of 2 ways. extreme religious belief, zealots etc. even if their child dies it is gods will and his mercy etc etc. then there are those who believe god is punishing them and don't feel there is a justification for the punishment so they get angry and forsake god. yet still blame him for their child's death or whatever. that's all fine whatever helps you cope right.
but what about the in betweeners. the people who still have faith and don't feel like any of this is gods will/fault. but feel like it is what it is and are questioning their faith not because they don't have any but because it is less. or it is no longer enough to sustain them. what happens then.