today

i am fast forwarding through the history (just for today folks) to talk about the present. as a matter of fact today, and this week in general. I am a mom, who works full time, whose husband also works full time........on a boat, in alaska usually, for 2 weeks at a time. he is not a fisherman, not in any outright danger, i dont really worry about him at work. anyways it seems that for a lot of people that should be a very full if not overflowing straw that broke the camel's back sort of plate. I have incredible support, some very best friends in the whole wide world and my family in laws. especially my mther in law (hereafter reffered to at mil) mil takes care of annika, she loves her almost as much as my husband and i do. she would do anything for that kid. she has been to al of her neurology appts because my husband cant go, she asks excellent questions, and generally she supports the decisions my hsband and i make.
i work at a veterinary clinic i am the boarding manager. it is usually a good balance of ease and stress i have lots of projects and also a lot of down time. today was freakin ridiculous though seriously.
i started at 7 am and left at 8 pm. i got a lunch for an hour. i had an interview for a prospective new employee my management decided we didnt need after she left. i had to give tours today to a half billion crazy cat people, i had to supervise my new employee (it is only her second day), then my old employee got injured and had to leave early, i also had to put my license to work and be a technician as needed, i had about 3-4 memos to write up, get proofed and finish for a meeting tommorrow. since my employee had to leave early i had to finish out the day in the boarding area doing her job as well. and all i could think of was " i wonder if my daughter has had an allergic reaction to the dilantin we started yesterday, i hope she is ok," i know that is how any parent would react but seriously what the hell like i dont have enough personal stuff to worry about i have all this shit piled on work.
i think my bosses got the idea that i am at a breaking point and let me kinda be a little loopy/punchy/sassy today.
anyways i am home now, i got to talk to my "carol" (you know who you are.) and cuddle my daughter who is fine except for some twitching in the legs.
i feel better
thankyou for your time.